Doing What I Can

Today was a tough day. I will be glad to go to sleep and put this day behind me. This day in which I put the girls in the stroller and walked for an hour and a half with my ipod ear buds in my ears and the volume turned up loud so as to drown out any questions, any whining, arguing, fighting. They fell asleep within 2 minutes of being in the stroller. I listened to my music and moved my body and tried really hard not to cry. The dog got a walk. I got a little break. I needed it.

I wonder if I am failing my kids by staying home with them. I am losing perspective. When David is gone this long and I spend so much time with them alone, I stop appreciating all the little things that make them amazing. I feel like my brain is wasting away and also overtaxed from trying to avoid senseless arguments with irrational three year olds. I need to not over-analyze one awful day. I need to rest.

Eleven Days

So the first night of an eleven day road trip went like all other first nights of road trips. Carter woke up about 10 times in the night. She finally ended up coming into my bed. Whenever the dog tried to come into our bed she threw a fit so I had to get up to tuck him back in his bed. Carter woke up for the day at 6am and wanted Katie to be up right then. I convinced her to play quietly in bed until Katie woke up on her own. At 7 Katie woke up and screamed until I came in to her room to help her out of her bed so she could walk to my bed. As soon as she got into my bed both girls started fighting over covers and places and then both were missing their princess dolls and the correct dresses. We finally all got settled and the dog stood up whining to go out. I think I could handle an eleven day road trip with no problem if I just got sleep. Carter woke up with scarlet cheeks and has a fever. I sent our digital thermometer and tylenol in a suitcase with David since he is going to Virginia and we will be there in 2 weeks. I have another infant digital thermometer that I don't really trust. I really wanted to get out the door early to walk. We are almost ready to go but it is certainly not early! 9am!

Today is my parents anniversary. I think it has been 35 years! Hard to believe! Congratulations mom and dad.